Journey to an Unknown world

After I completed my 9th standard examination, I got vacation for one month .I was really enjoying my vacations. It was during this time my father was admitted in Amrita Institute of Medical Sciences, Kochi .I was not so mature at that time. So I did not know the seriousness of his illness. But as the time passed by, he was still there in the hospital .so then I realised that it was a bit serious issue,I got too much tensed .You people can understand easily how a 14 year old boy would think .My mom was also too much tensed .I was alone in my home ,as my mom was with my father in hospital .I think that was the worst time in my life .No one to say my feelings ,No one to share my thoughts. My mind was totally out of my control. I was behaving like a mentally retarded person. But I didn’t tell these things to any of my friends.
My results came .i passed in all subjects with good marks and then I moved on to 10th standard .My father returned home after spending three months in hospital .At that time I realised the real face of my relatives .No one from my mother’s family came for our help. (We never expected any one of them).But my father’s siblings were too kind to us, they helped us a lot .We were financially down .My mom and dad suffered a lot. I still remember the nights in which I cried ,but no one was there to share my feelings .After that I learned to hold back tears.
Suddenly one day a letter came to my house in Alleppey. It was from my father’s department stating that he is promoted as an officer and got a transfer to Hosdurg(Kanhangad),Kasargod district .He was not fully recovered from his illness. But he was forced to go and join. So my mother also accompanied him to kanhangad. I still remember he was not even able to move a bit without any support .it was pathetic. So I was again alone here in ambalapuzha ( my cousins ,uncle and aunt were there and they were caring too ,but I felt so ).So I continued my studies there at Maria Montessori Central school ,Ambalapuzha with no one to guide me .I became lazy in studies .I never did home works .my parents came to know all those things .As u all know it was the starting of my teenage .So my parents thought of taking me to kanhangad.It was really a big blow for me .Even though I felt that I am alone there ,I never wanted to miss any one there, the place where I learned to walk ,the place where I spend my child hood .I never wanted to miss my friends .But my destiny was something else.
I have to move on, my mind said .i went to my school and told my teachers that I am leaving my school for ever will not come back as a student .Some of my teachers who were just like my mother became sad .I was also too sad that tears were ready to burst out of my eyes .but I controlled myself .I never wanted others to see my tears .I left the school with my eyes full of tears..As I moved on I met Sonu madam(My English teacher).Even I told her that I am leaving School .She told me that its all part of life and u have to move on .I smiled at her and went to Renuka Madam’s house ,as my friends were having tuition there. I also studied there. With a hesitation I went in to the terrace where the tuition was going. My friends were there .Rain was drizzling and was making noise when it touched the corrugated tin roof .I was drenched in rain and my mind was drenched in sadness. I was shivering and I said bye to madam and I was not able to look in to the eyes of my friends .I think my friends too remember that day (not sure).While I stepped down the terrace I looked back .they were also looking me .Tears started coming out of my eyes I just wiped it and moved on .A part of my mind was fully filled by my friends and the other side by my parents .My mind was just like a pendulum .Its life ,Nothing is stable .It has to change and it should move on…My train was at 9:45 from Ambalapuzha station .My parents went early .So I was supposed to travel alone .My Uncle (Father’s Brother) accompanied me till the station .Two of my friends were also present in the station.Nitish and Rohith. It was raining .we just chatted till the train came .I stepped in to the train compartment. I just looked in to their eyes .I told them to be in touch .I had their hands inside my hand .The train started moving, slowly I was forced to leave their hands...I said bye to them .I started my journey to a new world which was unknown to me .The journey of life started .The childhood I spent, The friends I made, The love and affection I got, all those stuffs are just memories, the sweetest memories one can ever have in his life …The mysterious life…